No Words

Have nothing good to write I had a lot of things swimming around and then I lost them... and so there is that preggo brain again. I have been successfully putting the kids to bed by 9pm every night and it is going very well so far. I then head to bed myself and read for about an hour... getting in some mommy time. I am one of those parents that with the first child I just let her do whatever cause that is what I did. I was a SAHM then for almost till she was 2 and we just kind of went with it. She started public school this year and now has to get up at 7:15 every morning. Now with the second one I was all about the routine I think it is because I work full time now and it was easier. He was in bed every night at 8:00 no matter what. But now that he is gotten older I extended it an hour. Now I am not sure if all hell is going to break loose when summer comes and the new baby is born but we shall see what happens. I am trying to think positive about this whole thing... But with a new baby coming and a hubby who is almost non-existent for another 8 months or so I don't know how I will manage but I will right?

Friday Night Left Overs

• I am going to start doing this because I like this and I want to be a 5 day a week blogger
• I have been so tired lately with being preggo and it does not seem to be getting any better
• I am going out the next 2 nights without the kiddos or the hubby I need this so much
• Is so happy to be feeling the baby more than once in awhile it makes me smile
• Is itching to see to watch Army Wives on Sunday I wish I knew someone who could just tell me what happens
• It has been so hectic at home in the evenings with the kids.... I hope it slows down.
• I want Arbys and I am determined to get it TODAY.
• I love my hubby he is wonderful and I could not ask for more
• I am going to set my ipod up on my new computer and buy new songs....
• maybe next week I will figure out the link to the host

Now to relax for the weekend... :)

Being an Army Wife

So is it sad that I miss Being an Army Wife? No not the deployments or the war.

I miss the being so close to people it was like your family but you didn't share the same blood.... I miss that. I also miss GA and all my friends there..

I Miss the Spanish Moss
I Miss the smell of paper
I miss the river
I miss the drive downtown
I miss the warmth there.

I want to go there and visit so bad. I think for the very first time in my life I need a change. I am sick of the same routine over and over. I need to be that close to people once again. I sometimes feel like I am slowly moving away not physically but mentally from people and its beyond my control.

I just want to move into a new place in a new town and start over. I need a fresh smell and a new house and new floor and a new room....

I just feel stuck like we are going to be stuck in the same place forever. Blahhhhhh maybe tomorrow will be better or maybe I need ice cream? Who know.

ABC's Of Me....

1. Age- 27
2. Bed Size- Queen
3. Chore you Hate- Cleaning the bathroom
4. Dog- Yes one Max
5. Essential Start to your day- Waking up the princess for school
6. Fav Color- Purple
7. Gold or Silver- white Gold
8. Height- 5"0 even
9. Instruments you can play- None
10. Job Title- Marketing Rep
11. Kids- Kylie-6 Xander-2 and Bun in the oven
12. Live- Illinois
13. Moms Name- Joni
14. Nicknames- Jilly, Jilly Fran, Chuckles
15. Overnight Hospital Stay- To have babies or because of babies.
16. Pet Peeve- Liars
17. Quote from a Movie:
18. Righty or Lefty- Righty
19. Siblings- Brother Mike
20. Time you wake up- 7am
21. Underwear- bikini
22. Veggies you dislike- most
23. What makes you run late- my hair
24. X-Rays- teeth
25. Yummy Food you make- Italian handed down from my Great Grandma we have the originals with her handwriting laminated....
26. Zoo Favorite Animal- Monkey

Changes...

So I think I have changed a lot over the past year. I have been trying to "FOCUS" on being a better mom to my kids, a better wife, a better friend, a better daughter and sister....

I think I have done a pretty good job with being better. I know there is still much more room for improvement but I think I have gotten "better" and that's what counts the most.

I have learned to Listen more to my friends just hear their words with out giving them a reason just keeping it simple saying I am here for you and it will get better. Instead of "I think you should" I have done this when this happened in the past.

I am trying to let the little things not get to me so much my hubby not washing the towels or doing the dishes. The kids not picking up their rooms... Live is to short for yelling and cleaning. Yes we need to clean but with being a full time working mother when I come home that is the last thing I want to do is clean. I want to be with my kids and spend time with my family.

I am still working on being better... and it time it will come...

Its Friday Baby!

I have so many thoughts.......

* I am not looking forward to making "sides" for my dad's campaign rally for 100 people eek

*I realized yesterday that this year I do have a lil Irish in me on St Patty's Day My Bean in my belly

*We made Pot of Gold Snack Mix with the Kiddos and it is so yummy I might do another batch with the left over stuff :)

*I forgot my work bag today that contained my lunch and my book I suck today

* I am so looking forward to shopping with a new/old friend re-found this year

* I need to work on my Blog and learn how to make it look all cool and stuff maybe people will read it

* okay that is all

TGIF

What if...

In one minute your life changed forever.... I can't imagine something bad happening to one of my kids. I don't even think about it cause I will start to cry. But for some it has happened.... I don't know what I would say because it has really never happened to anyone close to me.



A girl that lives 3 blocks over was killed "accidentally by her boyfriend" on Friday night. I don't know the details of the story but I feel for her family. Can you imagine getting the call their lives will never be the same.



I don't think I understand grief nor do a lot of people in reading my hubby's medical books there are different stages. But does it really happen that way? I don't think you ever really get over loosing a child. My grandparents have lost a child and a grandchild. Their daughter was in her 30's and their granddaughter was 17 months. I don't think that you ever stop hurting my grandma will still talk about her and tear up. I remember her saying that it was not fair she was supposed to go first.



My heart breaks for families who loosed loved ones and it has to be more difficult when it is sudden.



Part of this makes me wonder why? A story like this and many others make me question my faith and why God would take a small child or a young girl?



I don't know if I will ever get the answers. Until then rest in peace....

Long Time...

Its been a long time since I have put up a post. I am not sure if anyone actually reads this anyways but....

I had a problem logging into blogger and I finally got it all figured out. The holidays were wonderful with the exception of some family issues. I try to stay out of that.

In Jan we found out after 2 weeks of nausea that something just was not right. I bought the pregnancy test myself and didn't tell anyone not even my hubby. I really think I was in denial but knew all along. I took the test well 3 actually and they were all positive so there you have it baby #3 is on the way.

This will be our last I am getting a permanent fix while they do the c-section this time. Although I am not sure how I feel about that :( I may just get an IUD or something I am scared for it to be so OVER. So I am battling with that although I don't really think about it often. I am praying for a successful pregnancy this time. I hope and pray for a healthy baby with no NICU. I want so bad to be able to take my baby home with me.

I hope that God and me can agree to keep me pregnant till 37 weeks.....

I am now almost 15 weeks and my bp is okay so far. I am keep my fingers crossed it continues to go un-eventful.

Well that's all for now.... stay tuned :)