Flat Hair and Moving Up!

So my hair is flat cause the heat is crazy!!!!!!! I don't think I ever it remember it being this hot so close to Sept 1rst. WOW 95 geese what a hot summer here in Chicago....

I hate flat hair did I ever tell you that.... I like Big hair well it has been tamed since the 90's but I do like it to have a little uph.... if you know what I mean.

So I feel like I am officially a Woman who has a Career. I am officially traveling outside the State of IL for my Job... and Flying on an airplane I feel kind of like I am moving in the right direction. You know like I am working my way up the ladder and if I stay in one place and put in my time I will be able to move it on up.

I have nothing really to say. I am officially a mom of a school aged Child and I have started to know what a single mom of 2 kids feels like.

Although no my hubby and I are still married, but he is in school full time and working full time so basically he uses the facilities of our home and that's it. We are in week 2 of this and I can honestly say it SUCKS I don't know how I am going to make it a year but I know this much I am going to be doing some smoking and alot of drinking that is for sure.

I don't care what anyone says a glass of wine here and there and a night out with the girls keeps a mama sane!!!!!!!!! I for the first time in months went to bed at 9:30 last night I was shocked did even make it through the second episode of Diners Drive Ins and Dives. Pathetic but this is what my night consisted of:

Leave work at 4:45
Gas Station stop 4:50
Weight Watchers Weigh in 5:30
Home to find road tore up 6:00
Walking a block to my house 6:10
Sink full of dishes 6:20
Baths for me and the kids 6:45
Feeding us dinner 7:30
Play Games with Kids 8:00
Bed for the kids 8:45
Mommy sit down 9:00

On top of that it was Starve yourself Monday and I did not eat but dry Cheerios until I ate a plate of pasta while walking around getting stuff ready for school.

I was starving and then it like went away and I could barely eat UGH Tonight I am getting dinner getting Kylie school shoes coming home bed for kids getting in shower then off for Girls night cause why bother staying home when your only company is a mute dog...

And the Tears Fall......

It feels like just yesterday when I held you for the first time it was me you and Nanny. While daddy snored in the chair beside the hospital bed.

Your Nanny and I could not get enough every little noise all your little toes and those chubby little cheeks. I was the first in the group to have a baby to say you changed my life would be an understatement. I spent a year with you.. we were like 2 peas in a pod just me and you against the world.

We went shopping, hung out with friends, went to dinner, Walmart trips and midnight because who cares I was a stay at home mom who did not believe in schedules. You were as happy as can be. You turned one and we welcomed home your daddy.. you walked down the isle before mommy at her wedding... Then we bought our first home and we moved in.

A week ago I took you to enroll in school. It was fun you got to meet your teacher and learn about things like a library and Brownies...

But today when I watched you walk though the door with that backpack bigger than you I lost it. Where did the last five years go? Before I know it I will be teaching you how to drive and helping you life then planning you wedding...

But tonight once again it will be just you and me for a little one on one girl time. Three Cheers for Kindergarten I can only home I did a good job :)

I love you Princess Kylie for here to heaven and back!

Listen

I have found that in the past I have not been the best listener. I have been trying very very hard to just listen... and not always have to comment back on things.

I have been doing my own personal little tests with myself.... testing myself in different settings on different things and with different people.

It will be intersting to see what the results are and how I will move forward with it. I think that if I start to make possitive changes in my life things will start to look up.

I have done some research to make the homemade Christmas gifts I want to.

I want to make a list and write down what I want to make each person then buy the supplies and get everything complete. But in my head there are so many ideas....

I just wish I could get people to read my blog and comment ah maybe one day

Wordless Wednesday

My Princess in 2005 at First Birthday and next week I will be walking her through the doors of school. I am already crying....

And Then Things Changed.

Have been really thinking alot lately about things.. Alot of things....

Ben starts school in less than a week which means me and the kids for the next 18 months. I am really starting to get in a bad mood.

I am trying to keep busy with planning things and such but it really has not been working that well. I think I need to make some changes in my life.

This is what I want to happen in the next six months.....

1. Join something (anything really) Book club, knitting night, a band.... whatever just JOIN.

2. Take Sewing class at Joann's

3. Pay library fines so I can save money by not buying the books

4. Continue on my path of a 60 Pound weight losss... I am over half way there

5. Exercise More

6. Try and Do more one on one things with Kylie this whole daddy is going to be busy will not make her a happy girl

7. Get in gear for a homemade Christmas.... want to make everyone a homemade gift. And I know I am going to have a lot of time on my hands.

I just need to make some changes. Maybe that is my problem. I have been so testy lately... annoyed at everything which I know was partly because my MIL pissed me off so bad this weekend. I want so much to let her have it I am so close to dialing the numbers, But for what I am almost sick of hearing me talk about it I just don't want too anymore.

I am looking forward to fall and the holidays. Halloween and Family Pictures..... Disney world 2011 and Hawaii 2012 Oh I can hardly wait....

Thinks she has come to the conclusion that she wants to move don't know where but somewhere with new things, new people, new adventures.

Kindergarden and Cake!

So today I will leave work go home and get her certificate of birth and some other papers to driver over to the school and register the princess for kindergarten.

I can't believe this it seems I was just kissing her forehead for the first time and saying farewell to day for a year... and yet so much has happened in the last 5 years it is almost hard to believe. I sometimes wonder what she will remember of it because I don't remember much before first grade. I don't even recall my brother as a baby.

She is so grown up already... and going to public school for the first time I just can't believe this is happening. I am going to be a mom of a kindergartner.... okay now I am getting all teary eyed.

I am going to prepare the school parking lot in advance that yes I will be crying and most likely going to work with sunglasses on to hide the tears. So if you see a short girl with short brown hair dressed nice sitting in a little red car bawling her eyes out... no worries I will get over it. :)

Which brings me to another point... what is my Xman going to do without his sister all day. He loves her and sometimes even reaches his arms out for her over me and his daddy. At the end of the month he will be without her for 6 hours day. I wonder what he will do.
I recently heard a story from another mom who's boys are all grown up now but she had them 2 years apart and she said when the older one went to school the younger one would cry every morning when he left and put his shoes on an hour before he got out because he was ready to go and get his brother... HOW cute is that.

This weekend was DIET FAIL I did fine until I decided to attempt making my mom a bday cake with cool whip frosting. I usually and not the best when it comes to cake making but for some reason this cake was amazing... special thanks to Betty AKA Betty Crocker for making the dry ingredients. This cake was by far the best cake I have ever had Sorry Jewish Bakery down the street you don't compare. So if anyone out there needs a professional cake maker I am your gal.

*****please note I don't decorate I just bake and frost the cakes.***** And sometimes the frosting job is not the best but who cares if it is good right? RIGHT?

Things that make you go Hmmmm....

It was an intersting weekend to say the least.

I went out...

To a Bar....

And Drank Eleven Shots.... Ate Breakfast at 3:30 Am..... Got home at 5 am.....I am a 27 year old who has not done something like this since before she was 21....

I am too old and too "Mommyified" for 4 hours of sleep, and HUGE headache, and not being able to eat for 24 hours.... UGH

BUT there is a bright side..... I had a Hell of a Time :) So Until next year this bitch will be giving herself a curfew. I NEVER NEVER thought I would say that but I will be!

The second part of this post will be a vent...... I just do not have time for bullshit. Its that simple.

If you want us to be a part of your life then make us one.... don't call 6 hours before arriving in town and ask us to come over. Everyone else knew ahead of time why didn't we. Stop texting me 8 times to try and explain things wouldn't it have been easier to PICK UP THE mother loving phone?

Again just so you know I don't have time for you to create drama with the family so its really not worth it to drag us in... Thanks and Have a Great Day