I am at the point I would like to get a re-do of Summer 2010... It is like so much has happened this summer.....
*6 Funerals
*Never See Hubby/work/sleep/eat/work/sleep/eat/kiss wife/REPEAT REPEAT
*Drama
*No Vacation
*Too Hot
* Working 40 plus hours a week and having the kids all by myself leads to
* Streeeesssssssssssss
Last night while I was watching Teen Mom which by the way really FARRAH you are going to leave your baby in the hall way while you unpack your shit are you kidding me...... What an idiot she is just as much of a loon as her mother. I do feel bad for Catelynn I am glad her and Tyler made up I was crying with her poor girl she has been through so much with the baby and now Tyler. Although I could see his point about her lying and what not but she loves him and he basically kicked her out.
Macy- Girlfriend I know you mean well and all about moving out but your friends are already not having it. And Ryan is a hottie girl you need to go and just get him in the sack one last time just remember to use a condom please
Amber- Gary is a retard and you need to move on my love you look really good but ease up on the tanning you look orange on TV girl
And then the drama comes... so last night my hubby lost me trusting him with things he should not talk about... but I dont blame him for saying something it is a doubel edged sword but because of all of this I lost a friend. I still feel so terrible this morning about it all. I want to take it all back I want to have told him not to go to training last night. Now he is no longer on the Fire Dept for now.. leave of absence although I fear he may not go back ever.
Do I push him to go back or do I push him to stay away... why are there so many choices in life?
I really need a wish right now.... like first I wish people would read this blog I promise I will make it pretty soon
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Thursday, July 22, 2010
In My Past
So now that I have discovered the joys of DVR. I never watch anything "live" as you will. I am just so used to fast forwarding through the commericals.... which has 2 benefits one I don't have to watch the dumb things and 2 it avoids all the tears from my princesses eyes when she sees that toy and I say sask Santa!! "But Mommy HELLO Santa is not coming for 6 more months its summer" Oh well I guess you have to wait.
"But maybe I can get it for Halloween" Um no what do we look like the Trumps? We don't buy $180.00 DSI systems to be put in trick or treat bags honey.... "Why couldn't I have gotten it for Easter"
"Princess the Easter bunny brings candy and small toys that fit in a basket not DSI"
"Mom DUH Nintendo DSI can fit into a basket" UGH I digress I give up! Your not getting one because I said so and that's that!
So back to my DVR I watched the new Episode of Army Wives last night. I usually shed a tear or too watching it because I am not sure if you know about my past but I was a Military Wife an "Army Wife" to be exact I lived the life.... I took the journey of having the love your life get deployed to come back and you just begin your lives together and start a family and then BAM just like that more orders. Another year in the sand box.
The episode as one of my fellow army wife described was raw and accurate. It literally took me back to those times. "the dreaded last night" The show went to every one's home as they each said goodbye to their loved ones. They all had dinners, tears, hugs, and fears.
I remember when he left the first time it was the last phone call I cried myself to sleep and did not sleep for the next 2 days until I heard his voice again. The second time it was a week after I had given birth to the most beautiful little girl in the world. I could not drive him to the airport so his dad did. I did not take the baby cause I knew it would be that much worse. I watched him hold her close and kiss her little fore head not knowing if he would ever see her again.
We get all settled and we were waiting at the gate.. "Now Boarding all passengers for flight 250 to Atlanta" I walked with him up to the doors I was sobbing did not want to let go as we stand there and hug a man walks up to him and taps his shoulder. " Sir are you going over there" Yes Sir I am my hubby tells the stranger. " Well Son I will pray for you and your family and for your safe return Thank you for what you are doing"
That Stranger I will never know his name nor will I forgot that day in the airport. So many things flooded back last night I hated the last night, the last kiss, the last hug, the last words.... I hated it so much its almost like you never wanted the day to end. I am so thankful for all the men and women in the armed forces and for my Hero.... I would not be who I am today if it was not for you... Any Hero in Uniform will always hold a special place in my heart
"But maybe I can get it for Halloween" Um no what do we look like the Trumps? We don't buy $180.00 DSI systems to be put in trick or treat bags honey.... "Why couldn't I have gotten it for Easter"
"Princess the Easter bunny brings candy and small toys that fit in a basket not DSI"
"Mom DUH Nintendo DSI can fit into a basket" UGH I digress I give up! Your not getting one because I said so and that's that!
So back to my DVR I watched the new Episode of Army Wives last night. I usually shed a tear or too watching it because I am not sure if you know about my past but I was a Military Wife an "Army Wife" to be exact I lived the life.... I took the journey of having the love your life get deployed to come back and you just begin your lives together and start a family and then BAM just like that more orders. Another year in the sand box.
The episode as one of my fellow army wife described was raw and accurate. It literally took me back to those times. "the dreaded last night" The show went to every one's home as they each said goodbye to their loved ones. They all had dinners, tears, hugs, and fears.
I remember when he left the first time it was the last phone call I cried myself to sleep and did not sleep for the next 2 days until I heard his voice again. The second time it was a week after I had given birth to the most beautiful little girl in the world. I could not drive him to the airport so his dad did. I did not take the baby cause I knew it would be that much worse. I watched him hold her close and kiss her little fore head not knowing if he would ever see her again.
We get all settled and we were waiting at the gate.. "Now Boarding all passengers for flight 250 to Atlanta" I walked with him up to the doors I was sobbing did not want to let go as we stand there and hug a man walks up to him and taps his shoulder. " Sir are you going over there" Yes Sir I am my hubby tells the stranger. " Well Son I will pray for you and your family and for your safe return Thank you for what you are doing"
That Stranger I will never know his name nor will I forgot that day in the airport. So many things flooded back last night I hated the last night, the last kiss, the last hug, the last words.... I hated it so much its almost like you never wanted the day to end. I am so thankful for all the men and women in the armed forces and for my Hero.... I would not be who I am today if it was not for you... Any Hero in Uniform will always hold a special place in my heart
Thursday, July 15, 2010
They are the best of friends
So right before I got preggo with Xander my hubby talked me into getting a puppy. I have never really been a dog person or a cat person for that matter. I like to stick with fish!
So anyways we got the dog who my daughter named "Max" she was a wee bit obsessed with Max and Ruby at the time. I am just glad she did not go for the Backyardigans I really would look like a fool yelling Uniqua or Tyrone out the back door....
Max has been good to us he has been through my princess who as I am laying in bed so sick from the little bean growing inside my belly.. I hear "Max Pucker your lips" I look over and see her smearing lip gloss on my puppy she also tried to paint his "nails" yeah that was a blast.. He would play pretty pretty princess with her on the days I could not bring myself to even move or else I would vomit.
I was nervous to bring the baby home being that he was over a pound at birth and came home at 4 and a half pounds it made me really nervous. But again "Max" would lick his toes or his hands while he was swinging and for the most part watched over him. Now that my big boy is 18mths Max is his Bff! He loves that dog. We were gone for a long weekend over the 4th and when we came home and he saw the dog he was so excited...... it was adorable. He plays with the dog all the time and giggles and giggles. It is such a cute little relationship it reminds of the movie Homeward Bound... and the boy and his dog Chance I feel like that is how Xander and Max will be
So again I have never really been a dog person but I love our "Max" and would not trade him for the world :)
So anyways we got the dog who my daughter named "Max" she was a wee bit obsessed with Max and Ruby at the time. I am just glad she did not go for the Backyardigans I really would look like a fool yelling Uniqua or Tyrone out the back door....
Max has been good to us he has been through my princess who as I am laying in bed so sick from the little bean growing inside my belly.. I hear "Max Pucker your lips" I look over and see her smearing lip gloss on my puppy she also tried to paint his "nails" yeah that was a blast.. He would play pretty pretty princess with her on the days I could not bring myself to even move or else I would vomit.
I was nervous to bring the baby home being that he was over a pound at birth and came home at 4 and a half pounds it made me really nervous. But again "Max" would lick his toes or his hands while he was swinging and for the most part watched over him. Now that my big boy is 18mths Max is his Bff! He loves that dog. We were gone for a long weekend over the 4th and when we came home and he saw the dog he was so excited...... it was adorable. He plays with the dog all the time and giggles and giggles. It is such a cute little relationship it reminds of the movie Homeward Bound... and the boy and his dog Chance I feel like that is how Xander and Max will be
So again I have never really been a dog person but I love our "Max" and would not trade him for the world :)
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