Thoughts Thoughts and more Thoughts

Sooo I have a taste for waffles and I texted my hubbs and kindly advised that is what we are having dinner waffles this will be a first as I have not had breakfast for dinner in like 10 years which was 3 years before I met the hubby and 6 years before I had KyKy.

So Anyways on to another subject so there is this friend and I her an I had a falling out about a year ago... lets call her chocolate well she said some really really mean things. Now if she would have said them about just me fine I can handle that but please do not bring up my family... they did nothing to you to deserve to be talked about. Plus there were things that were brought up in the conversation that I entrusted in her not to tell anyone about.

Well anyways it has now been over a year since we have not been friends. We decided that very day on the phone that it was over we would not longer be friends. We do see each other on occasion as we have other friends in common, and we are civil we usually say hi and asks how the others kids are but nothing more than that.

For a long time I was mad and then it turned into being sad. Certain things I would find would remind me of her and how much she was there for me when times were tough. Or I would remember just our long conversations on the phone we had about different things. But then I would think about the fact that when she had her baby she changed and the person that I so deeply missed was no longer there... and then I would stop thinking about it.

So it has been awile now like I said over a year and she wants to talk to me about what I am not sure but she wants to talk. The Hubbs thinks I should say no and leave it at that, But if you know me u know that I am not that kind of person I am very forgiving therefore I am thinking I am going to do it.

I am not saying that being we are gonna talk means everything will go away and things will be just as they were because I know they won't and they may never but hey they say when you loose a friend you die a little inside and I think that is totally true. So I guess we will see....

Out of the Mouths of Babes

Sometimes I hate family I mean seriously they make me freakin crazy.

Here is what the deal is as of late....

After all we went through with Xander basically my husbands entire family will not be attending his baptism.. PISSED off...

I also wanted to share that Xander is getting 2 top teeth and that we will be purchasing his Bumbo chair this weekend cause he loves to sit up. He also ROLLED OVER last i am so proud of my little fighter.

I decided I will vent about the family in a different post as of now I wanted to share with you my coversation with my 4 year old the other day. For those of you who do now know that my husband shaves his head therefore he has no hair on his head at all

Kyky: Mommy do you like having hair?
Me: Yeah Ky I do
KyKy: I like having hair too Mommy, why doesn't daddy like having hair
Me: well it is not that he does not like having hair it is just that he does not have any
Kyky: well he should call a doctor and get himself some

I about fell to the ground and laughed hysterically...... I just love having a 4 year old that always has something interesting to say

Well that is all for now folks.

First Entry

So this is offically my first entry.... I mainly want to do this for me, I also want to meet some other parents of preemies who can help me along the journey of raising a preemie. Plus my 4 year old is funny and I always like to share the crazy things she says so I guess I want to share a little about me first.

I am married to b-man for 5 years this Oct.
I had the princess 12-31-04 she was my oops baby but we love her to pieces.
We then had trouble TTC and turned to fertility pills which brings us to the next chapter of our lives the one we are reading right now.

I got pregnant with my son the end of June 2008 the whole pregnancy the only thing that was wrong was me being sick (morning sickness X 10000) On December 13th I went to the OB appointment and everything was fine. On December 20th I was taken to the ER for high blood pressure oh taken by my hubby who is an EMT/Fireman it was a scarey 180/120 I spent the next 5 hours trying to get it to come down to be transfered to another hospital that had a NICU because they said I had severe pre-clampsia and was going to need to deliver early. I was able to get 2 shots of steriods before Xander decided he want to srop his heart rate on Christmas Evening while my husband went to take my daughter home I was rushed into Emergency C-Section in which my baby had no heart beat that they could detect, and no one was there. I was so scared and it is something that I will never forget. My baby was born weighing in at 1 pound 14ounces 10 inches long and could fit in my husbands hand.

We spent the next 10 weeks in Rush NICU where we cared for my tiny miracle. We are blessed to say that although there were a few bumps in the road he is a healthy 5 month old Corrected at 2 months and weighs over 9 pounds now.