An End of an Era

So today my co-worker left. The one who looked like a warrior princess is gone as of 3:15 today. I have to admit I was sad I mean I know I am still going to talk and text her and email on occasion but it is still sad.

She is the one I vented to, said good morning to, and spent 8 hours a day 5 days a week with for the last 2 years. And now I have to make a new friend... and it sucks quiet frankly. They have yet to hire someone I do better with younger people or people around my own age and that might not happen.

So enough about that I am going to make myself cry :( There is nothing really new in the homefront.... well there is my friend got engaged which is soo exciting! It is soo totally awesome I am going to get to go and maybe be in another wedding. So I really need to kick it up a notch I have a year and a half to loose this gosh forsaken baby weight. All 40 more pounds of it but I am down 12 now so that is a good thing. I think I would be satisfied if I lost 40 more although it might take me awhile I don't care it took all these years to put it on, but I am hoping by winter of next year it will be gone. We shall see! I just want to be able to want to buy clothes again and feel good about myself. I am starting to the self esteem is slowly coming back.

I am also having baby fever lately like I am jealous when I see preggo people or when I see someone holding a new baby maybe if my friends had one I would be okay to just hold it and babysit but they are not....

Tonight I get to spend with my hubby it is the first Friday in over a month he is not working his 2 jobs and gone till the morning. I cant get a sitter so a movie is out but ya know we can still try to rent a movie and pretend to be in the movies I cant have popcorn anyways

Nothing to Say

I really have a lot on my mind with nothing to say? Okay that does not make sense....

So things have been going just going nothing much happening really Oh I have been having some crazy ass dreams though and they are starting to scare me. When I reached out to the internet-world via facebook and asked them about it they all said I was preggo WHICH is not possible unless I am the virgin mary or if I am like 3 days preggo.....

My sex life or lack there of.... when your hubby works 6 out of 7 days a week... and you have 2 kids and a full time job yourself well and then he is hopefully going to start school in April which means I better haul ass to a sex toy party and start to pleasure my self cause I am going to even see Mr. Pecker for a good year most likely.

In other news XMan is getting sooo big he had his one year check-up on Sat and he is almost 18 pounds it is hard to realize the kid is like 16 times his birth weight. CRAZY I know and are you ready for this drum roll please... he is almost 30 inches and is in the 50th percentile. With 2 midget parents (well not literally but we are short) I am SHOCKED maybe my son will grow to be 6 feet tall like his great grandpas and play hockey for the Black Hawks and buy his mama a beach home and and OKAY I will stop!

The Princess is doing good the big Valentines Day party is coming up and Guess he is throwing it yours truly! So I have all the goodie bag stuff and I need ideas for games and store bought goodies.... Any Ideas peeps? If anyone still reads me?

Well I am gonna close it up for today and maybe see if I can catch an afternoon nap you think my co-workers will notice?